Before I left Alaska last year I left behind a box with some beautiful dresses. The morning before I left I'd sent about $100 worth of things to Idaho and came home and there was that box of dresses. I was just too tired to send that box that day and I've regretted it ever since.
I had some beautiful temple dresses in that box and some nice church dresses. My RS President and other women from my ward decided I didn't really needs those dresses I guess. Most of them had husbands with successful businesses and lived in nice big houses. I was just a single sister living on disability. So they threw them away and my RS President said they'd saved some dresses for me. Well a dear friend of mine sent me those dresses and wouldn't take a cent for postage even when I sent her $20. She just returned it. And the dresses? A bunch of old ragged nightgowns.
Well I had this one beautiful blue dress I just loved. I'd gained back all my weight I'd lost on weight watcher's but thought maybe I could lose the weight once I left Alaska. I had gotten my dress for about $28 when it went on sale. I could have bought it again but they wanted $69 for it and couldn't afford it. So I lost my beautiful blue dress.
It's hard to forgive people when they are deliberately cruel and ugly. My sister sent me a beautiful temple dress recently and when I got it in the mail I just started crying. I'd been wearing a white nightgown to the temple I was that poor.
I know being overweight or obese is unhealthy for us. I've been overweight for sometime now but not nearly as heavy as these poor ladies. I think being overweight is more of an "emotional" issue rather than just genetics or poor eating habits or not enough exercise. When I was in high school I was always told I was too fat and I weighed appromately 140-150 pounds and at almost 5 feet 7 inches tall that wasn't fat at all. I think the abuse of family members and my ex-husband and boyfriends caused me to gain weight more than anything. When you are beaten with a belt by a brother it causes emotional issues. When your sister screams at you all night long she hopes you become a prostitute when you are just 19 it causes emotional issues. Or when you are married and your husband constantly puts you down and calls you an educated idiot, that you can't do anything right causes emotional issues. I know this is why I've gained my weight. But again I'm on ano
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